Was she in love with him? 15th November 2021
Paradoxical and confusing. He opens the door to me and right away he begins with, chit-chat. Years away from this (2023) - and I have many hours' experience of finding people who have arrived to talk with me, lost outside the building; in the rain, the sun, the wind. Some are anxious, some are smiling anticipating telling their story and needing to feel better, many people are confused - all just people, and hopes and fears. And then into the peace of the therapy room... But I never begin with chit-chat about me. Ever. So what is happening? Of course I enjoy it, he's talking to me about him. Like I'm being let in, just a tiny, tiny bit. And then he sits down and we are back to my research proposal, hooray! And he is very clear in his mind that a trauma in the present, confirms the trauma of the past. A reanimation, that occurs not to resolve it - but to confirm it - because it feels normal. Observing his way of thinking is like watching someone tr...